Hi all,
Not going to lie, the holidays were rough. Grandma is living in a care facility (she and Grandpa were just a few rooms down from one another), so things were going to be different anyway, but no one imagined THIS different.
The plan had always been to bring Grandma and Grandpa home for one more Christmas at their house together, but that didn't happen.
We were able to have a family dinner at Grandpa's favorite restaurant though, and I brought Grandma, so that was the highlight of the trip. She was so happy and joyful and it was good for her to be out. It made me feel a little better.
I was able to spend some time at their house by myself, and a couple experiences made me feel like Grandpa was listening. I just sat and talked to him for about an hour, recounting every memory I could think of, all of our adventures, and the house felt calm and peaceful. It's worth noting that my uncle set up a couple motion-activated cameras to keep an eye on things, and that the cameras have gone off multiple times - even when no one is there.
I miss Grandpa so much. I cry every single day. I call his phone just to hear his voice, and leave a message. He is the closest person I have ever lost and I still feel like I am floundering. He was my first best friend and I will never get over this. I'll just learn to live with it, and that's okay.
I finally feel a bit like blogging again, and there's so much to post about. All of my typical year-end/beginning-of-year posts are obviously late (everything was up by now in past years), but I'm okay with that. They will be coming over the next week or so, and there's lots to talk about!
Happy Reading and Happy New Year
Sarah